The UPS and DOWNS

For anyone who thinks A.D.D. is made up or everyone has it, that is 100% true. The world would be a crazy place if that was true just imagine. I can because I have it and I dont believe everyone else has it too so dont say that.

I wanted to explain now something that been thinking about a lot. Its the ups and downs of this disease of the brain.

Regular people get excited when something comes up and then when its over they might be okay or they might be a little sad. That is NORMAL.

But not for A.D.D. people like me. I get excited about things just like normal because its something to look forward to. Anxious as it gets closer. But instead of enjoying it when its here from seeing a movie I wanted to see, to going to a theme park, etc something fun. I want it to be over. Half way through I want it to be done. I just want it over. And when its over I drop into saddness and depression because its done.

Its only gotten worse over the years. I think I used to actually enjoy things and not be anxious in the middle but now its gotten to the point where I am UP then DOWN more quickly.

I live my life day to day trying to be excited for something. But when I have NOTHING going on nothing to look forward to I am sad even more and depressed even more. I wish I could have something to look forward to.

With no clue what to do about this I just carry on. But its one of those unhappy things about having this. Being super up then dropping super fast. Its like climbing on a roller coaster the hill's are usually even for most people you climb up and drop down same length. But for those of us with ADD you climb far but drop farther and quicker then you planned. Its pretty scary indeed.

No touchy!

Hi I have ADD and I dont like to be touched. I have always been this way ALWAYS. As a kid I never knew the reason why. Especially by guys. As a kid that was my dad I hated being hugged, or patted on the arm. Same thing as now. I dont like being touched.

I never knew till my 20's when I was in college that it was because of ADD it explained a ton. I know I still do it I cant help it.

I'm not even a big germ person who hated being touched cause of germs. I also have no clue why.

My parents friend at church today said to my sister that he would come see me upstairs and I would probably still be "all dont touch me". What? Yeah if I didnt think I came off as that I truly do. I come off as dont touch me.

The ONLY comfort I have is that when I want to be touched by friends guys and girls or anyone I do allow to be touched. Hugged is the biggest issue for me. So I guess in the end if I want to be touched I will let them. But most of the time I dont.

Hands off!

Christian with a problem

First of all. I believe that God gives all people what they are born with. From anger issues to ADD.

So having my issue isn't easy as a Christian. Imagine how we are told we should learn, control, mature. But I can't recall my lessons and so I'm maturing slower or not at all.

Then there's prayer, worship, Bible studies and reading the Bible.

Let's start with prayer. You are told quiet your mind, focus on God don't think of anything else. Yeah right! I try but my mind goes on a ride while I'm praying. I can't help it.

Worship is great. Till something from a light to a person distracts me. Then I get bored wanting it to be over so the message can be done.

Bible studies are great. If there's humor and themes. Not verse by verse same old. I try to take notes but find drawing is better or other stuff. I bring small things to do instead. I always hear the study but I need to be doing other stuff.

Bible reading is bad too. I have to be interested in what I'm reading. It's why I like my yearly Bible. I dont have to try to figure out what to read. I love lots of Bible books. Don't get me wrong but when your minds wanders and you get bored easily it's just not fun.

Don't get me wrong. I love being a believer and ADD is just a thorn in my side. God understands the struggles. I just wish more Christians with the issue of ADD would speak out.

I'd love to expand more on this perhaps even write a book. Help others. But I can't for now as I don't know how to live better myself.

Till I write again