Christian with a problem

First of all. I believe that God gives all people what they are born with. From anger issues to ADD.

So having my issue isn't easy as a Christian. Imagine how we are told we should learn, control, mature. But I can't recall my lessons and so I'm maturing slower or not at all.

Then there's prayer, worship, Bible studies and reading the Bible.

Let's start with prayer. You are told quiet your mind, focus on God don't think of anything else. Yeah right! I try but my mind goes on a ride while I'm praying. I can't help it.

Worship is great. Till something from a light to a person distracts me. Then I get bored wanting it to be over so the message can be done.

Bible studies are great. If there's humor and themes. Not verse by verse same old. I try to take notes but find drawing is better or other stuff. I bring small things to do instead. I always hear the study but I need to be doing other stuff.

Bible reading is bad too. I have to be interested in what I'm reading. It's why I like my yearly Bible. I dont have to try to figure out what to read. I love lots of Bible books. Don't get me wrong but when your minds wanders and you get bored easily it's just not fun.

Don't get me wrong. I love being a believer and ADD is just a thorn in my side. God understands the struggles. I just wish more Christians with the issue of ADD would speak out.

I'd love to expand more on this perhaps even write a book. Help others. But I can't for now as I don't know how to live better myself.

Till I write again